Empty brain chatter and baby leaves.

I haven't really anything new to write about lately. I suppose I should do something mall rat-like, that way my mind is opened up to awkward situations, weird occurrences, and unusual events. If I were to even slightly open to the door to my thoughts, you would read nothing but my distaste for federal government, my new found respect for poetry and my remaining dislike for math. For now, you can take part in looking at the process of the growing leaves, and how much I love the signs of Spring:

Jesus + Best friends =

These past two weekends have officially been dubbed two of the best in my span of twenty years thus far. After Worship in the "Woods", twenty-something year olds making blanket forts, a picnic at the park, tree hugging, the AWAKEN Conference, and large, red chairs with my favorite ladies, I would say that my smile continues to grow. Let's see what memories have been captured...

Worship in the "Woods":

AWAKEN 2010:

Can you see why my smile would be permanent?

Also, here is an e-thank you to my new followers:

Christene and Kendra!

You ladies are wonderful!

Solidity Rhymes With...

As written in my last post, I am in the process of plucking the thorns from body as I recover from an ever-wonderful breakup. While plucking, I have realized the value of being single and I am absorbing the solidity that it brings. I am not by any means saying that it is not hard, because it certainly is, but I have a will that has grown within me to keep me going.

I am thinking one would ask "Why would it be hard to be single?" and I would regard this as a very legitimate question. While this is embarrassing and pathetic to admit, my answer to the question is: I do not know the last time I was without a boyfriend. There. I said it. It is strange to comprehend, sad to admit, yet, funny to realize.

It is strange that I have never really understood how dependent I was on another human being for my pull to happiness. I suppose the sadness derives from my lack of dependence on God, and all of the time I have wasted in between. Then there is the funny realization. I can find humor in it now, because God still was unrelenting in every relationship. I would ask God if this is not to be, then tear it down - and He would. Nonetheless, without thought, I would continue with my way. It was as if God was acting as the bulldozer to my "relationship life" and after the mess was cleaned up, I would carry on without sending Him a thank you card. How rude of me.

Now, here I am. God has decided to do a bit of bulldozing again, and this time, I will wait. I will be patient. I will listen. I will be more willing and open to who, and more importantly, what He wants for my life. With all of this said, I will blatantly admit that I have tried to go my own way regarding my emotions, but even that did not work out. I literally had to give everything to God, and I mean everything. Once I did just that, I knew there could not possibly be a greater feeling of freedom.

I'll end by saying solidity rhymes with validity. Solidity is what I rest in and God's validity in helping me rely solely on Him is what keeps me going. I cannot wait until I can say the statement, "I do not know the last time I have had a boyfriend." and mean this.


One more thing. I would love to thank my two new followers: Julia and Crescendo! You two are lovely. Thank you!

An Unquestionable Importance

First and foremost, I would love to thank my new followers: Yesenia, Where the Hart is, Ragamuffin, Jillian McGrath, Kristi Marie, and Amy! I thank you ladies and your interest in my blog. It is always encouraging in the blogosphere world. Speaking of encouragement and women, I have been recognizing the importance of friendship and how it has been vital in my life recently.

As a 20 year old, I have experienced much heartbreak, and just recently I was thrown into the the thorn bushes of all heartbreak. While the thorns hurt, I am more than blessed and more than grateful to have the most amazing friends to help the process of plucking these little boogers out. My friends are so gentle, so kind, so helpful and most of all, so loving. I just wanted to take this time to write an entry on how amazing they really are.

Chelsea, Holly, April, Jessica, Aretha, Andrea

I love you ladies so much. I just don't know what I would do without you. I cherish you six ladies, and want to thank you for the encouragement through this gradual process of maturing myself in life and in my relationship with God. I love that you challenge me and keep helping me in my steps toward a better future. Thank you for never giving up on me. I am so happy God has placed you ladies in my life. Again, thank you.

With that, maybe we should all take the time to recognize the significance of our girl friends and to thank them. If you're one who happens to be uneasy with the idea of having girls as friends in life (I used to be the same exact way), I will be more than happy to be your first female friend. I promise to be there for you and to help you over and through whatever speed bump you encounter. I believe it is an unquestionable importance that we all have our friends to lean on when we figuratively fall into thorn bushes. After all, all we want is, as The Early November would say: "Love, love and happy afternoons" and through friendships we can find this.